♥ Sunday, January 30, 2005♥
Jus nw i meet Justine below my flat,he call me and told me he was nearby my place and ask mi acc him for dinner coz he heaven eaten and i agree. So we went to the coffee shop he ate, i drank.. We chat and tok cock for a while then he walk me home.. When crossing the road he hold my hand, after crossing i wanna let go my hand but he hold my hand very tight like dun wanna let go.. Suddenly he told me " Claud i wanna hold ur hand like tis forever" I gt a shock lei,i dunno wat to say loi.. I known him for abt 4 yrs and within this 4 yrs we seldon contact only last yr Dec i saw him at my friend Party then we started to contact each other and meet each other quite often.. SIAO!!!
Woh..I really gt a shock leh..Any way i act beri cool..i told him i only treat him as a friend and i dun expect he like mi coz i SO FAT,SO SHORT,SO UGLY!! But he say " U are not ugly,not short is tat u r fat jus need to trim down,if dun wanna trim down is ok u look cute n bubblely and i like ur carefree,straight forward and happy-go-lucky character i feel very comfortable with u" SIAO LIAO!! in my mind i really dunno wat to say... Then he say " i no u r hurt badly in ur last relationship and its a phobia to u But i hope u will give mi a chance to take care of u.. i dun care weather u r rough,ugly or fat i jus get attracted by you the way u tok,ur action,ur behaviour ... Gif urself a chance also gif mi a chance" Any way i asked him go home and think twice wat he say to mi today. i say: " U not bad looking mai but u like mi..SIAO AH!! Ur question is too sudden liao i really dunno wat to say..All along i jus treat u as a gd buddy,gd brother i dun expect u tell me this Sorri i can't give u an answer i really feel beri messy inside my brain i still trying to overome this Shock"
He told me NVM maybe he frighten me and too sudden liao tat y i can't accept he say"NVM i will gif u time to think no matter hw long i will wait,if u r really wif an answer jus tell mi i can accept, no matter u accept mi as a BF or fren i will still treat u the same.. Remember dun look down on urself u r really a nice gal, u r the one i really wanna be with..Pls dun avoid me and pls dun think i m sweet talking to u. U shall no wat type of person i'm"
i agree i will think twice of wat he say to mi today,i ask him give me sometime to think over abt this n i promise him i will not avoid him he also promise me he will give me sometime to think and will not stress me on this.
OK OK dun wanna type liao..wanna ZZzz liao so late..Gd nIght..Sweet Dream...
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