♥ Saturday, August 27, 2005♥
Went out with Elaine,Jean,Jiehan,Yan Fang ,Han Chang and Alfred.. 1st went and bought elisia present after that went to Cenileisure for dinner.. I ate alot alot of things and i drank 2 bowls of Miso Soup coz i was so scare to see him..I scare to see him not because i like him BUT is because i veri "pai sei"..I really very very "pai sei"..
Can u imagine my heart beat so fast..my face turn red then got watery eye.. i dunno hw to face him..i really dunno hw to face him..I really feel like crying.. He talked to everyone except mi..I'm jus a stranger to him..Why gd friend turn out to be like this?
IS ALL MY FAULT...ALL MY FAULT!! I HATE MYSELF!! I HATE MYSELF!! HOW I WISH I WILL BE KNOCK DOWN BY CAR SO THAT I CAN LOST MY MEMORY AND FORGET EVERYTHING..
I really feel damn sad..really damn sad.. y thing turn out this way.. i really wanna cry..i wanna cry...Can i cry? I really wish that everything is back to normal and we are still gd frends like last time. Hw i wish time can be turn back when i no is impossiable..
Its been a long long time i nv so "fan" so confuse before..The only thing that make me "fan" was the relationshup between and Lawernce which is 3 yrs back,after that i nv experience thing tat is so "fan" like this..Why..Why must i "fan"?
Su Ku Kor hw i wish u are here now to help mi solve all this.. I know that i have grow up everything i gt to settle and solved myself and learn to be independent but this thing really make mi "fan shi le" You are right i'm "Hum Chee" when come to relationship problem but this time round i really can't solved ah..HELP Mi..ANY ONE CAN HELP ME?? What shall i do?
PrInCeSs ShaN