♥ Friday, September 09, 2005♥
This few days feeling abit confuse and sad... Really dun't know why thing had to be turn out this way.. Sometime life is really unpredictable, few months ago still friend, nw is like a stranger dun't know what will happen next..
After thinking i think that is better i stay away from him.. I had been taking illustrative to sms him Good night msg and hope that eveything is back to normal but there is no reply msg from him.. Last few days my friend can't reach him so i helped my friend to called him.. I pick up my courage to call him even those i know 99% he will not answer my call.. In the end he called back my friend and nv reply my call or even send mi a msg.. My friend did ask him does he feel uncomfortable n shy when we went out that time he say No.. My friend told him if he call us out the "US" include mi,he say all along is not a problem.
When my friend told mi this i feel that he really feel uncomfortable when i was out with them..If he dun feel uncomfortable then why tat day so quiet, why nv return my call? So i decided in order not to make he feel uncomfortable i told my friend to count me out when they all went out with him.. I feel that i have been making the 1st move liao and i really feel beri thick skin loi.. He was the one who feel that i like him but all along i nv admit and he also nv confront mi n ask mi..Hw can he be so sure that i like him? Kaozz.. IS so unfair to me!! I dun wanna let him feel that i so thick skin.. He a guy he shall make the 1st move why must he b Pai sei? I'm the 1 shall be loi..
Suddenly feel that i had lost a friend...Used to be my friend..Now NO LONGER liao.. Nobody will understand hw i feel... NOBODY bother to come and talked to mi abt this even my good friends also never really had a proper talked abt this matter with me.. I had to be the one to ask her wat ur command? WHY...WHY....WHY???????????????? My good friend say dunnno weather i will b angry anot if they went out with him i say is alright...i'll not be angry.. Any way i'm there or not there with them also no different.. I'm beri sure and gt a beri strong feeling tat he dun wanna be friend with mi anymore but he pai sie coz of my friends..So he no choice..
My good friends dun even give me a call to talk to me and tell me what they think..They just simply listen to what i say..no command frm any of them..They just ask me Y..When i tell them the reason they just say ok and nv really give mi any feedback or tell mi anything.. HAizz
Sianzz.. NoBody will understand how i feel..NObody care... No Body tell him hw i feel.. Nobody tell him i on diet but i still got eat.. Nobody told him i'm back to myself.. So he dunno...Never mind is alright..
Maybe i shall keep a distant and be low-profile..Jus pretend i DIE liao.. Need to b alone.. until everything is normal.. SORRY!!
PrInCeSs ShaN
