♥ Sunday, March 25, 2007♥
Recently alot of things happen... Trying to console myself.. Really feel very very sad over all this matter.. But wat can i do? i dun think i can do anything to it and all this are within my abilities to help.. Maybe this is wat life is for.. God make things happen around me maybe this is to help me to cope with things better ba..Well i can only tell myself everything will be over...Everything will be over soon.. dun need to worry..
Talked to ratz over the problems i encounter... Is nice of him to give me advises and suggestions really appricate it.. Thank Ratzz.. I know whenever i have problems you will always be there lending me your listening ear.. This is 1 of the reason why i like you so much and treasure you so much.. can't afford to loose you...
PrInCeSs ShaN
♥ Sunday, March 18, 2007♥
I got to see Ratz yesterday...i'm so happy..so happy!! He came and fetch me... At 1st he told me he will confirm with me again later so i thought the chance will be very slim.. Around 8 plus he msg me " C u at habour front later".. So happy.. so happy.. i can see him..
He reached early so he park his car at habour front carpark.. Waste money.. i wanna pay him back but he refused.. He say if i insist then next time he will not come and fetch me liao.. I told him then he will not get to see mi next time if he dun take, in the end he suggest take the money treat him drink kopi..
We went to the kopitiam downstair my place.. he watch his soccer, i played my phone game... kanna suan by him again.. Haizz.. But i enjoyed the "suaning" hee..hee.. He say once i become his personal missy i cannot turn back... I asked him when my contract will end? he say dunno, i told him will stop the time he gt himself a GF.. He say Why? i say coz gt GF liao gf shall take over ma.. Later GF jealous ma..cannot.. He say P.M can help do other things, i say No, Gf will will help him do all the things.
I always feel happy everytime i see him, go out with him, evrn those i only get to see him around 1 hrs plus but i feel contented.. I'm waiting for him, for him to fall in love with me.. I will wait.. wait..
PrInCeSs ShaN
♥ Thursday, March 15, 2007♥
Recently he have been working still quite late.. the number of time we chatted on the phone is so much lesser now.. Mostly on Sat or Sun night ba.. He work till 12pm plus every day by the time he off work i'm already in my dreamland on top of that after he reached home he might not have the time to chatted with me coz he so tired and the next day need to woke up early for work again...
This sat i will be going to Ling wedding, i asked him to come and fetch me home.. He say he will come and fetch IF he nv work.. But if he work mean i got to go home myself loi.. Hope he dun work.. Wanna see him.. Sort of miss him.. Haizz.. Wat to do.. Who asked me like him leh..
Change the song of my blog.. Now you are listening to Celine Diao song : To Love You More.. Like the lydric especially this part it goes like this :
I'll be waiting for you
Here inside my heart
I'm the one who wants to love you more,
You will see I can give you everything you need
Let me be the one to love you more.
Just believe in me
I will make you see
All the things that your heart needs to know
喜欢一个人决不敢告诉他就只好偷偷的暗恋loi, even those 偷偷暗恋一个人的感觉不是好,但是很开心,因为我知道我可以拥有他这个朋友在我身边. Must be statified.. Dun be too greedy.. I'm really happy to have him by my side as a friend, at least i can still called him unnecessary, disturb him and go out with him..
PrInCeSs ShaN
♥ Wednesday, March 14, 2007♥
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Went batam for a charity mission.. After going there i realise that hw fortunate we are.. Those people there regardless old or young most of them have medical problem but is just too poor to get treatment.. Those people there really have danse, white and hard cateract.. On top of these some even have retinal problem.. The children there have very bad claped lip..Water there is so previous to me.. Can u imagine i nv wash my hand frm morning to afternoon, in then end i can't stand it i used mineral water to wash. Keep using hand rub till my hand so sticky.. The water there is no clean even those is frm tape..
Anyway i'm very touch that Rat worry about me going to Indoneasian.. I asked him will he miss me and worry about me? he say Ya.. So happy.. He also asked me to give him a msg when i reached singapore.. so touch.. I thinking too much.. He just concern me in a friend way.. It normal for friend to care for each other ma..
No matter wat i'm very happy that he care for me... Happy that i completed the mission and back in singapore alive and kicking.. Happy thay i'm born in singapore with clean water, food to eat, friends to be with and a family that love me...
PrInCeSs ShaN
♥ Thursday, March 08, 2007♥
Today is a busy Thurday for me.. My god!!.. Work like cow.. So busy... Nv stop till lunch time, but my lunch time was only 35 mins.. No choice theater busy.. Wat to do... After morning case finished at 1pm got to start afternoon case where got time to rest and take my 2nd lunch break.. No choice.. This is work life got to accept it.. Who asked me choose nursing as a career.
Sometime felt like changing job.. Change to be an Admin Asst.. But i got no office skill qualification and experience who wanna hire me? I'm afraid if i go for interview, the interviewer will laugh at me.. Frm a nurse to admin asst.. Only got experience in nursing patient but no experience in handling admin work.. Further more the pay vary alot leh.. If i work as an admin asst my salary is quater less of wat i'm earning now.. which is alot loi.. Cannot lah.. Dunno lah.. walk 1 step see 1 step..
I done a Celebrity Look Alike test.. Take alook at the results.. very funny loi.. I look like korean and japanese singer and actress.. Ha..Ha..
PrInCeSs ShaN
♥ Tuesday, March 06, 2007♥
This morning Ratz msg me and told me someone peel off the pig sticker on his car.. He was very very angry.. The words he used in the msg were very harsh and rough.. Nv see him so angry before.. I'm also sad coz Pipi (the name of the pig) was gone.. :[...So sad.. I like this pig so much.. The 1st time i saw this pig some how or rather i just fall in love with it.. Childish? I dun think so ba coz i believe everyone have something they like, so do i.. Anyway I told Rat think it in a positive way that he can change new sticker.. He can now stick his Evil Pig sticker.. This is wat he wanna do it sometime ago, but i stopped him now Pipi was gone so he can stick the Evil Pig sticker liao..
Hor Sin asked me something today.. She asked me " If 1 day Ratz married how will i feel".. Ha..ha.. I told her of coz will feel sad lah and i will not attend his wedding.. See someone i like get marry is very hurting leh.. I dun wanna make myself feel sad so dun go loi.. But i will always give him my best blessing.. I believe the women he marry is someone that can take care of him, Rat will not any how find 1 gal and marry.. He is a caution man, he know wat is gd for him wat is not..
Anyway wat will happen in the further i dunno, so i will treasure every moment i spend with him. I believe there is always a starting and there is always an ending, but wat will the ending be nobody know.. Just dun think so much let natural take its course...
PrInCeSs ShaN
♥ Sunday, March 04, 2007♥
Ratz mom fell down on Thursday night, she fracture her hand lucky dun need to operate.. Hope she recover soon.. I told rat if need my help can call me i will try my best.. He say that this "personal missy" must start to work liao.. Go his house do house work etc.. I told him i can but hw is he going to tell his mom who am i? He say new maid, special and limted edition wan.. Coz pretty ma.. ha..ha.. Woh kaozz.. Maid leh.. HUMP!! anyway he is kidding lah.. i know it but at least is limted editon and he know i'm pretty ha..ha..
Start getting sick and tired of my work liao.. What shall i do? resign?.. Resign and look for a new job is not a problem but will i get good colleagues like tis current work place? Will i get a nice boss? My Nurse Manager here is already consider as not bad liao coz they are flexiable and will try and help you when come to leave and OT claim.. On top of this the timing here can be flexible coz you can take leave when the theater lists are light or you can OT claim when ur theter finshed early.. But other work place can? i dun think so ba..
I felt like taking Unpay Leave for a few months.. Let myself have a good break and refresh myself but now my side 3 nurses resign and now we have difficulty taking leave, so can forget about the U.P.L i'm thinking to take.. What shall i do?
If i keep dragging myself to work i'm very sure that i will not perform well... Recently i realise my performance not as good as last time and i got no mood to work loi.. Even those works for 8 hrs but since like it look like 80 hrs to me.. Always looking forward to go home at 5, which i dun have such feeling last time.. haizz.. What shall i do.. I really very confuse..confuse..
PrInCeSs ShaN