♥ Wednesday, July 18, 2007♥
Meet Christel, L.S.M, Hazlin, Kerly, Hor Sin and Serene for dinner At City Hall Cafe Cartel.. Nice dinner..nice foods.. nice friends.. Yum..Yum.. Thank LSM for the cute handbend she bought frm Taiwan for me.. As for the rest present with another colleagues she nv bring so i will only get it when i go back to work.. Thank for the dinner treat gal..
Crying for the whole night...Chatted with Ratz, we chatted abt Steve(the policeman who is wooing me now) and Sebast who just jio me few hrs back.. I told Ratz i cannot compare him with the 2 of them coz they are wooing me so they will treat me nicer and do more thing then him..
I asked Rat why he nv woo me? He say No yet Ann Lian so nv woo.. I asked him why not yet Ann Lian? He say coz no feeling.. Sad.. Sad.. He say he dun feel the couple feeling between us.. Sobzz..Sobzz.. I cried.. Tear rolling down frm my eyes..Horrible and sad feeling..
I told him is the problem lie on him or me? He say the problem is with him lah, maybe he heaven walked out frm the past yet.. I told him he has to walked out frm the past loi, if not he will nv start afresh.. I asked him can he promise me he will walk out of the past coz of me? He say he will try.. I told him i will wait & see to walk out of that sad circle.
Am i stupid to wait for him? Am i?.. i asked him is it i rough ah all this? He say ,maybe this will influence abit asked me to be more gentle. Well, i will continues to wait for him.. I know is stupid but i will wait loi.. wait till he like me..
He say dunno why he just take extra care and treat me extremly gd.. No Mei Mei feeling for me, not normal fren but more then that..Haiz.. I very confuse.. But confrim i like him loi.. I gt feeling and couple feeling for him loi..
Maybe this reall a curse to me leh.. The person i like will not like me.. Maybe i'm not meant to have BF ba.. So scary.. i think i will just shut up and be normal.. Wait and wait for him to walk out of his own shadow.. I know it will not be so fast but i hope it will come..
PrInCeSs ShaN
