♥ Tuesday, January 15, 2008♥
Feel like blogging this thing in my heart here.. Hm.. Hw shall i mention orhw shall i blog it leh? Well i think is better that i start frm A-Z ba..
Went to Tampinese Giant with Ratz on Sunday, as we were shopping for our BBQ stuff we saw Ratz decease Gf sister and her family.. Just 1 look i can see tat the ex-gal sister coz they look quite alike furthermore there were 4 kids so i can confirm it the sister..
A very natural reaction occur and tat it i walked to 1 side pretending to answer a phone call.. Still now i also don't know why i walked away.. Maybe because i'm shy, afraid the sister might misunderstand tat me and Ratz is an item in the end later Ratz gt to explain everything and last coz of my self esteem is low. Low in a way tat Ratz ex-gal was quite pettie and me just the opposite of her.
Partly also scare tat the sister might get a shock in a way of thinking tat " hw come shawn taste change so much?".. She might not be thinking this way maybe i think too much but things is very unpredittable wan ma.. Me no look, no figure and no character haizz..
As wat Jean had told me dun leave under the ex-gal shadow coz me is me, she is she..If i think i not suitable for Ratz then just leave him loi but i can't. Wat Jean say is right i must repect myself so tat other will respect me. Furthermore the gal pass away and Ratz gt the right to go out with any girls or even find another gf ma.
I know Ratz nv nv fussy over me, he know i'm rough, loud,playful, fat etc..etc.. I told him either he accept me or he ignore me but he say he use to it liao so it mean he already accepted wat am i? So why am i stil thinking so much? Haizz.. Also dunno wat i doing just feel stress.. Just wanna be perfect but i know i can't....
PrInCeSs ShaN
