♥ Thursday, May 22, 2008♥
Was terrible sick for the past 3 days..
Feel giddy and feel like vomitting.
Dun worry i'm not pregnant..
Have been thinking alot also..
Think i shall blog it down here
to remind myself ba..
Just wondering wat am i to Wisely?
I'm not given a title..
To him i'm just Smarty..
Smarty mean just fren or
gd fren but not more then that..
Maybe love and feeling just can't be force..
I think it better to be in love
rather then falling in love..
There are big different
in these 2 sentences...
For a 3rd party who see tis
type of situation will find
Wisely a "bad guy" and
will find me a stupid gal.
But he is really not bad.
Infact can just say tat
i'm stupild loi.
If any of my friends around
me is in this type of
situation i will sure scold
them stupid and ask them
to leave the man.
Coz i'm not in their shoe
i can just simply say it
in ease.
But when you are in tat shoe
things will be different.
Maybe i shall open up
myself and stop
being 1 side love loi.
It really not easy and
really very xin gu to
be 1 side love loi.
Stop Cling on him.
Stop calling him
Stop being so dependent to him.
Stop falling in love with him.
Stop all the 1 side love.
I know it goona be hard,
It will really be hard..
But i know i can do it..
I can do it..
It time to wake up.
I love myself,
I dun wanna suffer like this,
I dun wanna make myself so miserable.
If we will be together
we will, no matter wat happen.
No point forcing.
It time to wake up..
I shall make him
feel differnt in his life
without me but not
i feel different without him.
I still have alot of friends,
who love me and care for me.
I will treasure wat i have.
PrInCeSs ShaN
